3 years ago when I sat in front of my computer at midnight to create my personal blog after a painful breakup; I had no idea I was going to create my brand “Femme Du Soir” which means ""Lady of The Night". I was sitting in the dark that night, ironically and totally drifting in my pain, recalling all the empty nights I spent in my bed, writing, and rolling in the void of my imagination, nude and evasive. Calling myself a woman of the night resonated with me and does till this day.
From that point on I had decided to create a blog to begin unleashing my sensual nature, through prose, short stories, and exploring my body in the nude. My passion for Nude art had inspired me to become muse, but little did I know the challenges I was about to face, following my heart
From the beginning of my journey creating sensual art as a Haitian woman had been a challenge.
Nude art, and any other broad subjects related to sex is highly taboo or suppressed in my culture. Back then when I decided to become a muse, I had no idea I was about to face those challenges because I was only focused on creating, expressing and unleashing that part of me. I have always found a tremendous amount of power in being Nude and it has become, undeniably a tool to exude my strength, and my personal instrument for escapism.
But the rampant taboos that were still alive in my Culture and in American Society in general, about openly expressing sensuality, frightened me to the core. It frightened me because of my attachment to the principles I was raised by, and certainly for the respect I had for my family's name. Many other things frightened me, such as being misunderstood, lost of respect due to my line of work, being fired (at my old job, which I eventually quit), losing opportunities, not being able to find a mate etc..
I geared myself up for a long battle when decided to commit to my passion no matter what came my way, because I didn’t choose the stars I was born under, they picked me and fulfilling my soul purpose is my ultimate duty and responsibility even if that means to Go Naked to make a point, to bend the rules, and appoint new ones. It is in fact my mission to defiantly stand my ground as I pursue my dream.
Because Culture should not eradicate one’s individuality, and any evolving society would always make space for authenticity and individualism to be expressed. I didn’t want my culture to eradicate my individuality, even if I am proud of my heritage, I wanted to expand my capabilities and vision without dismissing my roots. In fact, that was the hardest thing for me to do. I refused to deny I am Haitian, in the pursuit of my dreams, just because there weren’t many Haitian muses, doesn’t mean that no one at some point wished to explore this art form.
Creating Sensual Art as a Haitian Woman may be challenging, but to it means to me that I am part of the evolution of this modern era. Where women from all walks of life will rise up to their full power to embrace their Feminine Essence without shame. It means that I chose to face the adversity of the old patterns and conception about sensual art and the taboos deeply rooted in the Haitian Culture.
Forging a new way to create my art highlights my soul mission and makes it even more relevant and significant because of the lack of depiction of sensual art in my culture. but I must also add, that I am not forcibly inflicting change, or demanding change. The very fact that I am living my dream serves a beacon of hope that change is already happening. Creating sensual art is my passion, but I believe that my Haitian heritage makes it a huge mission for me, which I have no intention of quitting anything time soon.
Written by Jodelle Duverseau